It took God less time to change me than it took for me to become who I had become. But it cost me more to change than it did for me to become who I had become.
God’s work in me and my sacrifice to accept what He was doing in my life is too great of a price for me to succumb to the pressure to go back to who I was. I can’t jump back over the paradigm shift that happened to me — the span is too wide. But the push is there, and it’s uncomfortable.
But God says, “Stay steady and be ready. I will use both your change story and your faithfulness story to make a difference.”
So, I’m doing what I know to do when I don’t know what to do. I’m staying faithful to who He has called me to be (steady), and I’m studying to show myself approved (ready).